I fell today.
It totally shocked me, as one of my biggest fears is falling.
I was busy cooking in the kitchen, and doing 6 things at once, when I noticed the pizza appetizer was ready. I turned quickly to turn the oven off, and one of the overstuffed and heavy, lower drawers had opened on it’s own, as it often does when not closed properly. It hit my ankles, right at the right level as to give me a karate chop and made me lose my balance. I tried to move away, backwards and the drawer hung on to my legs and opened further, making me tumble and fall. I didn’t want to fall on top of the drawer and break it, so I think I jumped up and fell even harder on my wrist, hip and bottom. Ugh.
Did I mention I hate falling? Luckily I didn’t hit my head on the hard tile, but I think I knocked the door on the oven. I have a small kitchen and there isn’t that much space to fall gracefully. Ugh.
I am ok. I am sore, and embarrassed and mad at myself and sad too. I wanted to cry, but I think I was in shock and just laid on the floor for a minute to make sure nothing was broken. And then I got up and said I was ok. I wanted to believe I was ok, so I just said I was and I thought I was so that hopefully I really was ok, but I am definitely sore and bruised, including my ego.
I had several errands to run, and my daughter told me to shake it off, and to not be mad, that accidents happen. In that moment, she was me. My words were coming out of her mouth. As we were driving her to her event, and I complained of the aches and pains, she was busy fumbling through the middle console, looking for my medicine bag at the same time I was getting ready to say that I needed something for the pain. She was thinking for me. I loved that. I have another life partner and I thanked her for her thoughtfulness and for being so caring and understanding. I love her. I love that she’s growing up and is so kind and took care of me and my pain without me even asking. I am lucky.
I took her advice and shook it off. Hopefully tomorrow the pain will be gone. There’s always something good in every situation and you just have to shake off the bad stuff and celebrate the good.
Slow down BeLovers. Be safe and take good care of yourselves. And if for some reason you fall, or something else falls, just shake it off.