My Baby is Growing Up

I am not really ready, but are we ever really ready?  

Today we had our first official college tour with our oldest. We have visited several college campuses in the past, but have never signed up for an official tour. Today things felt real. We are aware that the time is near and it just feels weird and normal and weird.  
My baby is growing up! Now if I could only slow down time. For now, I’ll just enjoy the moment.

Life is good. Love this life.

Happy Halloween!

This Halloween was different for me. My kids are growing up and our traditions have changed. I am aware.

We still had orange pumpkin pancakes for breakfast though.

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Our schedules are busier than ever now and we didn’t make time to carve pumpkins together as a family, so just Charlie and I carved alone this afternoon.


We didn’t do our annual dinner party and the kids split up, doing different things. My role handing out candy even changed.



I did enjoy our last Halloween parade at our local elementary school, even with the rain. This was bittersweet!



This Halloween made me aware of time passing and the kids getting older and how everything changes.

I am also remembering Taylor who was killed by a drunk driver on Halloween years ago and remembering Chase.

Hope you enjoyed giving away treats and/or receiving them tonight.


Picking Up Where You Left Off

Do you have friends that you don’t get to see or talk to as often as you’d like, but as soon as you pick up the phone or see each other, it feels like no time at all has passed?

Apryl called the other day and we had ten minutes to chat before kid pick up. We hadn’t spoken for months but both of us are aware and thankful for the few moments and just pick up where we left off, as if no time has passed. I love this about us. We’ve been friends for 15 years but don’t live near each other anymore, which is sad and typical of our transient lifestyle. But we have a shared history and comfort from being true friends, that it doesn’t really matter how often we chat, text, email, or see each other. I miss her though.

Today Jen showed up for a visit and I have been excited all week, just anticipating her arrival. We haven’t seen each other in over a year and now she’s staying with us for the next couple of days. I am so happy that she’s here and when I saw her again, we gave each other the biggest hug and never stopped chatting until she almost fell asleep from the time difference. I guess we’ll have more time again first thing in the morning! I just want to soak up all the stories and hear all about her new life back in Minneapolis. We were BFFs in Amsterdam and loved hanging out there together. I’m so glad she chose to spend a few days in Cali with me before her conference.

Next month I get to see my BFF Megan! She’s a busy working mom with four kids and we hardly ever get to chat and barely even text, but when we do, watch out world!! We are unstoppable. I cannot wait!

These are just a couple of stories and there are so many more, right girls?

I think the secret to having these kinda moments is having had and shared some deep and meaningful experiences that build these great foundations and friendships that withstand time passing and our busy chaotic lives that get in the way of connecting more regularly. None of us have expectations of each other and we know and appreciate that we are all busy, and when we do make the time for each other, even if it’s only five minute or five hours, it’s as if no time has passed at all.

Love you sisters!


Day 113: Being Still

This is what my morning looked like. Foggy and still.

Yesterday Jeff and I had to sit in a quiet airport, in an empty restaurant seating area that was closed with the lights off. We sat there for 3 hours. Foggy heads from being tired and still.

But the funny thing is, we weren’t bored. We didn’t really care, except that we really wanted to be home. We were thankful to be together and away from protestors. We were thankful that our flight wasn’t cancelled and that we had food and water, even if it was from McDonalds!!


And the funniest part was that Jeff agreed to play cards with me. If you know my husband, he hates playing cards or any games for that matter and I’m always begging him to play with me. So he agreed and that made me giddy and laugh which made him smile. But the funniest part was that when I brought out the new deck of cards from Madrid that I had bought as a gift for my mom and dad (we play cards every day) – the deck of cards only had 48 cards!! There weren’t any Queens!! What’s up with that? So Jeff got out of playing cards with me, but still won because he even agreed to play in the first place. That made me happy. Instead we played tic tac toe and another dot game. He’s not so bad!! I’ll keep him.

We were thankful that the plane took off as planned and that we got home earlier than expected.

The thing I learned after traveling to Italy, Luxembourg, France, Belgium, Spain, and the Netherlands in a period of less than a month is that it’s tiring to travel!! ;-). I also learned that I’ll find joy wherever I go, even if its just sitting in the airport waiting for time to pass.