Sitting still | here i am

I surrender.

I am resting the best I can and doing 80% less at 50% capacity. I just made that up, but that’s what life feels like right now.

I surrender.

I went to the chiropractor again today and really don’t like that feeling at all. I feel like I’m being broken and put back together again like Humpty Dumpty. I don’t like hearing that I have a “condition” that will need more work.

This poster hangs in the office at the chiropractor.

I hope the physical therapy and massage will help loosen everything up and help me to strengthen and stretch the muscles and ligaments that are so tightly wound and pulling me out of balance. I like balance.

I am letting go of expectations and I am patiently waiting for my normal to return. It feels so weird to me not to exercise and not to be doing all the chores I normally do. I am adapting and asking for help. I am accepting the break and slowing down, whether I like it or not.

One way that I can relax is by watching movies. Today I went to see Imitation Games at the theater and enjoyed eating buttery popcorn in a high-backed seat that was really comfortable. This movie was excellent and very touching. I highly recommend seeing it as it is very well done and is entertaining.

Tonight I am sitting on the couch and am going to watch some recorded shows and read some magazines. I think I might actually enjoy this!

What do you like to do to relax and slow down?

I hope you are well and have a fabulous weekend, doing what you love with loved ones.

Namaste.

Can you sit still?

I can’t. I mean I can sit, but I can’t stay for long. I want to crawl out of my skin and do something. I have lists you know!

I tried to slow down today and did. I sat, but my brain had other plans. I was like a sitting bull, just waiting to attack.

I literally need help. And not just from a chiropractor. or a masseuse.

My brain doesn’t turn off. I feel bad for my family because I have so many ideas to share and plans for us to do things together. I probably drive them crazy!

I admire people who can sit at home and read a book. I always think I should be doing something else and my mind starts doing flip flops.

I need to practice putting my phone down, keeping my hands still and just being. Maybe I’ll have to practice for 3 minutes with nothing to do and then move up from there? This is probably what they mean by being present and in the moment and here I thought I was doing it right. I need mindfulness and meditation and some yoga!

Geez – I have a lot to learn.

How was your day? Can you sit still? What do you like to do? Got any tips for me?