Being Vulnerable

“Through my research, I found that vulnerability is the glue that holds relationships together. It’s the magic sauce. ” – Brene Brown

I’m vulnerable. Today and most days. Aren’t we all? Today,  I’m especially aware of my vulnerability because I am still in pain and actually needed help. I needed help with having Tiger Balm rubbed into my back, shoulder and neck muscles.  I needed help at the grocery store and got help with kid pickup and kitchen cleanup and filling the rice containers.  I don’t like to be needy. I like to be the one giving help. I was still able to do some things, but at 50% the level and speed as usual. This made me incredibly vulnerable, a bit uncomfortable and a lot thankful.

As I slowed down, my family picked up the pace. I loved that they were helping me and looking at me with love and concern in their eyes. They are not used to me like this and I’m not comfortable just sitting. I’m not dying and I’m not trying to exaggerate, I’m just dealing with and waiting for the pain to pass. It definitely has a hold on me and I am not sure how long the wait will be. I’m getting lots of kisses and hugs and offers for help and I’m just trying to breathe and be patient. Thank you family and thank you friends for your ideas and advice.

While I wait, I will be thankful that I have people that love me and take care of me too and for this vulnerability space. Maybe this is part of my togetherness vision for the year,  just in a different form than I expected.

Life is good, even with a pulled muscle.

Day 304: Family Day in Schijndel

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Family – I’m thankful that there are people that love us and invite us to be together to share meals and conversation and company. The simplicity of just being and relaxing and talking and sharing food and drink together is pretty amazing. Do you ever think about that? I usually take it for granted, but today I really felt grateful for my Dutch family.

We spent the day in Schijndel with Gerard and Anita and their girls. We got there around 11:15 and had coffee and dessert. Soon after we had a nice lunch with hot baked rolls, cheeses and meats, and some even had Hagel slag on rolls. After lunch, Gerard took us to just over the border to Belgium to a Trappist abbey where they make beer. Jeff was in heaven! I was happy because the sun peeked out a few times.

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From there we drove into Eindhoven as we had never been there before. We happened upon the Daf truck museum and spent a bit of time walking around there, exploring this popular Dutch company’s history. Charlie was thrilled!

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We walked around the city center for a bit before heading back for dinner.

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After dinner, Gerard took Char and Juliana to Rio’s dairy farm for a quick visit, at Charlie’s request. He wanted to see the cows, ride the tractor and play on the go-cart. What a lucky kid!! Watching Gerard play with and entertain Charlie made me think of my dad and how he and Charlie always play together. I am thankful for their special relationships.

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And then to finish off the evening, more family came to join the fun. Franca and Henk and their daughter came, followed by Opa Tijn, and then Rio and Helma with their kids. The kids played soccer outside together and we sat around drinking and eating again!

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Life is so good. I am thankful tonight for Gerard and Anita for being so generous and opening up their home to all of us, and to Gerard for showing us around, and for the rest of the family for just being family.

I love you all!! xo