I like to see the good in this world and focus my attention here. I choose to celebrate life daily, finding a nugget of happiness even on the less than perfect days.
And even on the almost perfectly imperfect days, while I’m celebrating a moment of joy, I am aware that others are suffering.
Today I was filled with joy, anticipating Christian putting on his first tuxedo as he was going to prom tonight. I was admiring my baby and how he has grown up into a tall, kind and handsome young man. I enjoyed watching my husband help him with his shirt buttons and cuff links. I loved watching his transformation in front of my eyes.
And while I was enjoying my moment of joy, I was thinking of Chase and his family and feeling their sadness. It’s been a year and a half since he passed away and it just doesn’t feel fair. Life just is. Yin and yang. Joy and sadness, swirled.
As we were getting ready, I happened to glance at Facebook and learned that my friend’s daughter passed away from a horrible disease, cystic fibrosis. I felt for their family and the pain they are experiencing today and that will continue. I was crying tears of happiness and sadness at the same time.
I think we are all connected and that their children, are our children. And their pain, is our pain. And the other mamas, are part of me too.
As I was feeling joy and celebrating my son tonight, I was also feeling sadness for their loss. Yin and yang. Life is. Not fair. It just is.
nAMaste, BeLOVErs – wherever you are in this moment of life.
Rest in peace, Hunter.