I want to use a swear word, but I’ll hold myself back.
Stuff happens all the time and we don’t always like it or know what to do with it, especially the stuff we didn’t choose to happen.
We tend to focus on the good stuff and we seem to know what to do with that. But what about the bad stuff? How do we know how to go on again and reclaim our future and redefine our new path and accept that it’s ok to move on from here?
It’s hard to know.
It’s coming up on the one year anniversary that Chase died and we’re feeling it. We’re not really sure what to do with the feelings and there are no simple solutions or one size, fits all remedy. We want to reach out and connect and console one another and talk about it, and it hurts. We want to offer comfort and care, and we’re not sure how best to do it. We want to give gifts and be together and share our stories and hear each other. Maybe we just have to be.
I lit a candle and said a prayer. I called and texted loved ones. All throughout the days, while I’m working and driving and thinking, I am sitting with and feeling the sadness and loss more so again this week and am trying to accept it. I wonder when the acceptance phase kicks in.
We don’t have all the answers.
To all who are hurting, I wish you love and peace and hope to carry on.
We love you Chase and miss you.