My Birthday

It’s not my birthday. But I felt like it was.  My favorites are in town.  I got to just hang out with them all day and night and I felt like it was my birthday celebration weekend.  This is my dream come true.

The kids. The moms. The sisters. The Husband. All mixed together, playing and enjoying each other. That’s it. This is what makes me glow from the inside, so thankful, so filled with joy.

The littles were running around the house with trucks and small toys, making noise, chasing each other, banging on the drums and dancing.

The middle one made pancakes.

The big one slept in.

My loves enjoyed coffee together in the breakfast nook.

We didn’t have a plan and then one just came together.

We enjoyed the day unfolding, meeting everyones’ needs and just flowing. I love days like today.

We were at the soccer field, watching Charlie’s first match of the season, all of us sitting together on blankets and chairs in the sunshine and cheering and enjoying the journey.

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The middle girls baked meringue cookies and we stayed up way past our bed times again.

THIS is the life. Pinch me.  I love it. I love them.

I am so happy they are here to celebrate my “birthday.’

Life is good.  Namaste.

My Love

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This is my love. He asked me out on a date tonight in the middle of the week. We both are always busy and when his meeting got cancelled tonight, he texted to see if I wanted to go out with him instead.

I happily said yes. I love surprises and don’t care what they are. I just love to be loved and I’m so glad he chose me!!

We went to one of our favorite little Japanese restaurants and then walked around the downtown, enjoying seeing all the people outside having a good time on a warm night and stopped in at a fun, packed Irish pub.

I am thankful that he loves me and I love him.

Life is good!

Childlike Wonder

Do you still have it? I hope I never, ever lose it.

I am still fascinated by ladybugs and wishing flowers. The simple things in life. And the clouds and the fog. And babies. All forms of babies.

Today I was fascinated by the baby farm animals and am thankful that in this crazy, busy Silicon Valley world we live in, that we still have open spaces preserved for us BIG kids at heart to get away from it all and to remember the simple life.

Life is good. Don’t forget your childlike wonder and go outside and play and breathe. Namaste.

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This mama had triplets! Bless her.

Hurdles

What’s your hurdle?

What’s stopping you from taking the first leap? Do you even know?

Is there something that you want to try or do yet you’re afraid or busy or tired or bored or whatever you tell yourself that gets in your own way?

My hurdle is losing X number of pounds. It’s sooo much work to lose so little yet so easy to gain it all back plus more in a weekend, that my motivation has been, “I’ll try again on Monday.” And I do and fail by Tuesday. Sometimes Wednesday. And then I have to wait until Monday again, or some other crazy rational thought!

But today is Tuesday and I decided to jump over the hurdle right now and start on an off day. I need to do something right now and don’t want to wait any longer. So Tuesday is my new Monday. I jumped and didn’t fall!

I made a big pot of skinny girl vegetable soup that I can enjoy all week! I love soup. It’s comfort food to me and that’s what I need without the calories!

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I’m a food lover so depriving myself of good food is not an option. Having something that is healthy and ready to eat and I don’t have to worry about portions is what I think I need to get over the hurdle in my head!

Wish me luck!! And I wish you luck taking that first leap, even if you don’t want to, to get over your own hurdle! Just do it! The first leap is always the hardest! Namaste.

The Old Mom

I am now the old mom with BIG kids.

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When did this happen? I see it. I know it. But it’s still hard to believe and I love this stage and I love my kids and danced around the kitchen in my jammies this morning, singing to them, “All you need is love.” I know they think I’m crazy yet luckily they laughed and thought I was funny and little do they know how much I adore them.  I am so in love with my teens and almost tween and love this stage of life. I know they’ll be leaving soon and I am enjoying every minute with them, so be it.

I read the BEST parenting article today by one of my favorite authors, Jen Hatmaker, that made me cry.  Check her out here:

http://community.today.com/parentingteam/post/i-wish-someone-wouldve-warned-me-about-these-big-feelings

You’ll cry too, because she’s funny, real, authentic, and totally gets this parenting thing like no one else.  And she loves women too, just like me and wants to lift each other up and support one another and buy each other wine and high five each other at Target when the littles are throwing temper tantrums.I love her and so does everyone else.  She gets life and is really funny.

I love being a mom. It’s what I always wanted to be when I grew up. I wanted to be financially independent, knowing I could take care of myself and my family if I had to, and then I wanted to stay at home and raise our babies. Here I am. Living the dream. I love what I do, despite the stress and chaos and craziness that surrounds me some days.

I love being in the car with them and their friends and taking them to and from – most days! Last week, was another story, but today I was good. I took Juliana to her ortho appointment and then we went to get a bubble tea and fried snacks because that sounded like fun to them after school. I didn’t want to be busy. I wanted to soak them in and spoil them while I can. I always struggle with that – not wanting to spoil them and wanting to spoil them at the same time. They were thankful and we had fun together.

When we came home, Juliana was busy tutoring a little girl so Charlie and I went to hide away in his “apartment.” We sat on his couch and ate our snacks and played Mastermind together, which brought back memories for me when my dad and I used to play together. We are usually running around with way too much to do, and yet today we slowed down and just played. Can I even tell you how sweet this was? I am so thankful that Juliana needed a quiet house and that Charlie and I got to hide away together for an hour.

I know I’m writing a lot – but seriously, I really do like and enjoy my kids and today was one of those BIG FEELINGS days. We were at a funeral on Friday, and at a Special Needs Brunch on Sunday and I am still missing Chase every day and am fully aware that life is fleeting and messy so while it’s good, I plan to love on them and live it up every day while I can.

Charlie made me cry tonight when he decided to make dinner for himself and Christian. He wanted special plates to make the meal look fancy. We cooked tempura shrimp and he molded rice in little cups to neatly place on the special plates.  He placed the shrimp in a star pattern and used a brush to place the sauce decoratively on the plate. He was so proud of himself and served his brother in his room, while he studied. He was like a little, proud, Master Chef, Jr. I loved this connection and loved that they share this bond together.

This old mom is content. Life is good and IS what you make it to be and I’m okay with things changing and aging. I am living it up today and everyday and loving this one life right now. And you? Are you living it up and loving it out wherever you are right now?

Namaste.

Beauty Surrounds Us

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I lived it up today and am happily tired.

I saw beauty everywhere today.

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I saw raw, vulnerable beauty in the pain and struggles of life through the stories shared over brunch this morning.

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I learned that the time for happiness is now. The place to find happiness is right here. And the way to create happiness is to make someone else happy. Brilliant life motto, wouldn’t you say? Thanks Donna for sharing it.

I found beauty in nature and in abandoned buildings.

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I enjoyed the beauty of friendship, sharing time with special girlfriends despite our busy lives. We slowed down for each other and this was a beautiful thing. I am thankful!

Life is good.

Hope you enjoyed a day of rest and feel refreshed and ready to flow into the week ahead. Namaste.